Let's Just Talk

We all have felt melancholy at some point in life. Like there's nothing but an endless silence, nothing matters, nor do you care. You find everything so pointless, yet there's a massive hole you don't understand how to fill. A body where the soul just lost the enthusiasm to live. Often times I find myself asking paradoxical questions, and sometimes I find them suicidal in the end. Even if I tried I never really understand what makes these questions sound creepy or demotivating. The premise is simple, I just wanna understand the fundamentals and core reasons for specific human actions or even my own. Am I crazy to ask, why I shiver on heights despite knowing I can't die from the fall as long as don't jump? And even if I could, what holds me back. If life is so miserable why does one still go along with it rather than just end it if they can? I did all I could but I can never understand this state of life. Melancholy. A sadness without a specific cause, a pain without...

I wasn't able to sleep today, woke at 4, took a shower and i was starving so I decided to make oat meal with milk. I roasted some oats till i could smell them, then i added milk. I stired and it absorbed all the milk so I added more. I added just enough to cover the oats then some salt, yes salt! I stired and stired. Then it almost felt like too thick. I added water let it sit, till it was the perfect consistency. Added a tiny amount of cheese some salt to taste. And finally herbs. Give it a mix and we have an almost white sauce oatmeal. This might still need some work but it tastes good to my tastebuds.

Love is one of the most complicated chemical reactions that takes place within the grey matter. I recently got to watch Tadap (2022) the movie, the official Hindi remake of RX 100. The fun fact about this movie is that the story was based on a real-life event. The production and story writer did add a feelings and elements from their personal love life. Now here's the thing, there are going to be spoilers in this discussion. Please avoid it if you wanna enjoy the movie spoilers free. When Bollywood announced this remake critics had mixed predictions for the film. Some were excited about a remake, some were afraid of the controversies this movie might create. Bollywood making a film like this was quite a risk. I did watch the original, I knew the story but surely skipped the non-important intimate scenes. RX 100 has quite a lot of them. The remake is heavily censored. There are quite a different approaches to some bonding scenes. And overall the budget for this film was just so high...