Let's Just Talk

  I had a bad idea. Let's see if it works. Not bad straight-up worse, to be honest, it was a terrible idea. I was a fool to think it would even work at all. I decided to wake up early, for which I set 2 alarms, one which disturbed me, then the second to force me to wake up. well, both were different in terms of turning them off. What went wrong was … … me. Yeah, I messed up again. more like pursued time differently. We've all been there but what if I told you I traveled an hour in just ten seconds. Time is not a solid straight line, it's more like liquid. Like water, it can bend. One's perception of time and awareness is enough to make one a time traveler. Some would say, I was high. Guess what I was high, not on any form of medication but because of my brain. I just cut one of its drugs, for a while it had been trying to get high on something. For now, it's sleep. Now it's my turn to break that. Don't worry its an old post. View this post on Inst...

It was quite a weird moment. Thought cutting of social would bring me peace; that I'll be away from the cringe in this word. The last time I did the reality check, I was wrong. It flooded me with all those emotions and bad ideas I had been suppressing as an act of self-preservation. Last night that is day 1, I had a dream which almost confused me. After a little digging, it all turned out to be a memory loop. Think of your brain as a computer that tags memories as the day goes by. At night when you are most in REM Sleep, it plays back all those moments in a mixed-up way. Think of it like compressing an essay shorter and shorter again so much that it becomes just basic words, like Pizza, Friends, Talk, Park, Metro. Now our subconscious links all these to related things, which to us seem unrelated or even an encoded message. Something it could be. For me the dream had an emotional connection, it also showcased me in the worst possible scenarios, then the way it closed and connected t...

Morning Well, I woke up early today, about 6am. So far it’s working great; no scrolling through Instagram feeds or getting upset about people going out and sending me snaps of the same. Last night, I could at least have a rational mind. There was no song or reel, in particular, stuck in my head. I guess that has to do with me gaining my required dopamine yesterday, from the form of creation. I like photography, more like I’m passionate about it. I don’t really care how crazy people think I look when I click on a shot. Nor about what someone who used Photoshop thinks, is it over-saturated or dull. To me, those images are how I see the word those are my edits in my style. It’s like art therapy to me. Zen State by Kaushik Tambe The subconscious Cutting dopamine or should I say a drug has some effects on the subconscious as well. Since I wasn’t focusing on other’s lives, my mind could tell me something. An embedded message, a mixed match of emotions I tried to suppress. I have a simple phi...

Today, I made an initiative. I uninstalled all my distractive social media apps, Facebook, Instagram, Twitter and Snapchat. The first step was letting everyone know that I'm stepping out. I did wait for any feedback or appreciation. As for WhatsApp, it's mainy for communication purposes. I'll try my best to avoid using the status feature for my own good. No flex or funny stories, just for blog.