Photographs

I was going through some random old photographs I had, trying to find something to edit and post online. Like "I'm alive people, just inactive for a few days, sorry my bad. But I'm alive."

Well, I guess I went too far back. Hit 2010s. Like seriously, I still have those photographs. Back then we had a digital family camera, a point and shoot to be accurate. Not a big deal, my dad still had his old photo films. Yeah from an SLR. Gosh, I'm lucky we keep my birth pictures locked up, they are all just too embarrassing to look at.

Anyway, I was talk about photos. We'll metaphorical they are stills of a moment the one behind the camera thought this would be nice to keep a record of.

In the modern era, this tool is available to everyone who has a smartphone or an thing with a camera. And as you know, I go running around saying I'm a photographer b so I should have tons of photos, right? Actually No. Let me explain.

Sure I have images from 2010s but that was because we had a camera, I was also young and excited about taking photographs back then, but the thing is it was similar to playing with a toy. A lot of the photos were actually click by my dad, uncle, and mom. Alot of them are just so damn cramped together. There's nothing specific or too special about them. Also now the camera is ruined. Everyone has a phone now and clicks on their own.

So do I have more pictures on my phone?

Actually, Yeno. I don't have a lot of inta-perfect photos, a lot of them a shots that I feel would look nice or look interesting to me. There are only a few times when I've went for a photography speedrun.

Some of the picture I'll have are from a very good day I had with my company, friend or family. Most of the pictures are where I was behind the camera. I'm just not a fan of me facing a camera.

I don't take much pictures on trips as well, you know you have to pretend it's has an E rated all the time. I mean I went on a trip, it was fun but I prefered to save my battery and see things for myself. "Who am I kidding, I was pissed. Maybe I'm a brat to you but I have way more basic needs. I didn't bath because of them and yeah the drinking water sucked......'K! Get to the topic'.. oooh sorry. It's just that I have a lot to compain here." I don't click everything but I do click a lot of some things.

Also there's this thing where I use Dad's phone when I want to take a better quality image. Just like that recent Diya pick, that was fun actually.

There's also a problem with all that.

So I actually have a really bad habits, when I say it I mean it. I still keep old photographs. Yeah, it run in the blood. Mom literally has phone run out of storage because of that. Dad has a few book things, "honest, I don't remember what you call them."

We keep these tiny memories lock in. It's often hard to let go. I have backuped, copied a lot of old pictures I have. But the thing is some of those pictures don't make me feel good. But still I won't let go.

That is the real problem, it's not embarrassing pictures of me or my worst shots. It's more about a few personal memories that remind me about the past. A lot of things change, I experienced the real shit life can be. Teenage sucks. It definitely does.

I miss the person I was, but then again I hate the very thought because how pathetic and naive I was. People say that was optimistic behaviour, I'll say it was innocence. The world changed so bad that I can even she how that little guy slowly lost his smile.

I might just keep these photos as a little reminder, a window into the past for my kids, newphes and nieces. As a gentle reminder to myself, that a lot has changed and a lot will.