Rollercoaster

Well, by this point almost everyone from my class, read my blog. There's always a joy when you are being notified for something people find relatable, like they finally see me as a human.

I am grateful for those moments, but there's often the fact that they keep asking me when's the next post going to and what is it about? The fact is I'm just as clueless.

Writing is something that I enjoy. I love to share a story that has a greater meaning to it. A discussion worth sharing with the world.

I don't blog because it's profitable or i consider myself a content creator that has to post on a regular basis. Like I said this is a place to share stories and experience.

So if you are here for the rollercoaster ride, here it comes. For the last couple of months I'll say, I've been in difficult situations. Emotionally and physically, the very fact that I had no will left to even write anything new was kinda annoying, left me wondering if this was a cycle.

By the way, I turned eighteen and there are quite a few things that still scare the shit out of me. I haven't really achieved much in my life, nor have I even had those fun teenage years. Well, thanks to the pandemic and constant examinations. There was a lot of past trauma that kicked in, and also some new one.

No kidding, might have developed some sort of eating disorder. And the insomnia prevails.

Last weekend, I ended up making some plans to go out have a not objective spontaneous mall trip with friends but that failed. I had to roam around alone. I spend half the time in toy store and tech shops. Sadly I had no cash to actually buy anything.

I wasn't mad they couldn't show up. The thing is I am never that spontaneous. I should have been more careful planning so that I didn't look like an idiot for being the only person showing up. I was glad that I did went alone though.

Sometimes you are surrounded by people and work that it's good to be alone without any thoughts. I went around tried a few specs on, and also had a really nice walk.

If life's a rollercoaster, then I'd say I'm in the climbing phase, after this life might get interesting, all I can do is be myself.