I Wish I Couldn't Remember You

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 I never realized the truth was staring right at me.

If I hadn't felt invincible, the fall wouldn't have been this massive. I was so ignorant, I never realized I was wrong.

I wish I knew nothing. I wish I couldn't recall it happening. Each day walking the same path, I'm reminded of that miserable moment.

In solitude, the past haunts me.

Why couldn't you simply be forgotten?

I always imagine how wonderful it would be to wake up without your memories.


Yet I fear life would be inconsequential. The suffering is all I have left. It's the only way I can still remember you. An obsession I regret, yet I can't lose it.

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