Fidem (faith)

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 I almost forgot how to write.

Felt like I forgot to live for once.

Words I left unspoken, unwritten,

Some days those words just bring to life a new tale;

One of misery, one of love, one of fear.

Each letter as harsh as those scars.

I fear opening up would drive life away

I fear losing hope again

I fear startling you

I fear you'd be gone like a dear

I fear you'll see who I'm not

I can't bear it again.

We have been broken once

Betrayed, replaced, abandoned

Treated like fools

Used up like a toy they got bored with.

No one understands this pain

They just think they do

Do they?

Each day as we speak, I can't help but fall in love;

Yet each day, I fear it's too soon.

Each day you give me a reason to love you even more.

Yet each day, I fear I'll be hopeless again.

As you chuckle through my narration of this comedic ballad

As you understood every emotion I try to convey

I can help falling in love again.

Some days I don't want our conversations to end

Some days I wish to find more for us to talk about

I know we barely met,

Yet I want to freeze every moment when we do.

It's like I've met a fellow angel with similar faith as mine.

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