Something broke again.

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Something broke inside me again.
There was only a sound.
As things started cracking.
I never realized I lived in a shattered castle until the adrenaline wore off.

I was happy being stupid.
Ignorant.

The past broke me.
I fear loving
Each waking moment, I question,
Did I even love?
I want it to hurt,
But it doesn't.

Is it a joke?
Is it my descent into madness?

As I drift along with Entropy.
Pain and Love are only as inconsistent.

Something broke again,
Probably the ego for good.
Perhaps it didn't.

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