Let's Just Talk

Sometimes I just feel like I'm the most stupid person in the entire world. For context, My laptop has as issue with its hinge. Making it impossible to use sometimes. I mean it's annoying the whole screen has to be balanced to that it doesn't damage the tiny display wires. I've been telling my dad to get it fixed but he won't. So I thought I'll do it. I saw a few tutorials on the laptop model. I was confident enough so I opened up to see what does my laptop have. To be honest I was impressed to see an M.2 sata SSD. Thats not so difficult to accept anyone can see it in their laptop. I thought if I figured out a way to just get the SSD (a Storage Device) I can convert it into an external drive with an enclosure and use it. Well life is quite worst in this department. I failed so I decided to close it. Despite doing absolutely nothing but clicking the photographs of my storage to avoid being scammed. My internet keyboard which was already bad, the only thing it is g...

Isolation, people say that they have dealt with it. Especially in the pandemic, everyone has been locked away from each other, it was a necessary isolation. The type of isolation I'm talking about is more emotional and mental, it's not because of medical issues but rather one's choice or lack of choice. One doesn't choose isolation, it's often forced upon him due to external factors.  It often seems to the observer that the victim chose this for himself. Internally for this person, it was the only way.  Sometimes these emotions are so bottled up that even isolation doesn't cut it. I don't like to sware but I've observed that I've begun to curse more frequently and it's a form of relief for my subconscious mind.  I won't talk the real stuff, so I curse! Isolation of emotions and thoughts is often hard to go through. It's not like I wanna keep these things to myself. It's just that there's a mental and emotional block. Despite knowi...

I was going through some random old photographs I had, trying to find something to edit and post online. Like "I'm alive people, just inactive for a few days, sorry my bad. But I'm alive." Well, I guess I went too far back. Hit 2010s. Like seriously, I still have those photographs. Back then we had a digital family camera, a point and shoot to be accurate. Not a big deal, my dad still had his old photo films. Yeah from an SLR. Gosh, I'm lucky we keep my birth pictures locked up, they are all just too embarrassing to look at. Anyway, I was talk about photos. We'll metaphorical they are stills of a moment the one behind the camera thought this would be nice to keep a record of. In the modern era, this tool is available to everyone who has a smartphone or an thing with a camera. And as you know, I go running around saying I'm a photographer b so I should have tons of photos, right? Actually No. Let me explain. Sure I have images from 2010s but that was becau...

November 5, 2021. 5.15 pm We were supposed to leave by 4 today. But we were running off schedule. For about half an hour Mom was tossing down the clothes and essentials we needed for our trip. It's 6.47, and we finally left our house. On the way to the bus stop, which is quite close to my regular metro station, everyone was too close to each other. I mean it. Yeah of course adding the social distance of about meters radii each. I was too ahead of the crowd, even though I was carrying a heavy back. I don't know when we reached the stop but the worst part about all this is standing there waiting for the right bus to arrive. I'll say those were some longest minutes of my trip. Luckily, at 7.27 the bus arrived we hopped on and got settled in our seats. I was writing this part. If you wonder why am I being too accurate about time well it's because I just got a new watch. And I just can miss an opportunity to look at the time. So far the trip is on my usual route, Asalpha to ...

Well, it had almost been two years since the international lockdown due to COVID-19, a lot of institutions were closed for the general public. Including our beloved colleges. It's a fact that college life has a greater meaning in any student's life. It is usually where the students discover new stuff in life. It's another thing that they are often expensive. But personally what sucked was that they all went online for the entire year of 2020. I honestly hate being in an online lecture, especially after 2020. It's almost 2022 now and the University of Mumbai has finally decided to start offline lectures, the only condition being students must follow all rules and regulations and be fully vaccinated. I mean sure the rules also include no fooling around in the college canteen, meh. We at least get to see something other than the eye-tiring screen. Day 0 Well, the day was quite normal; we all knew that the college was gonna go offline, I on the other hand wasn't quite e...

  I had a bad idea. Let's see if it works. Not bad straight-up worse, to be honest, it was a terrible idea. I was a fool to think it would even work at all. I decided to wake up early, for which I set 2 alarms, one which disturbed me, then the second to force me to wake up. well, both were different in terms of turning them off. What went wrong was … … me. Yeah, I messed up again. more like pursued time differently. We've all been there but what if I told you I traveled an hour in just ten seconds. Time is not a solid straight line, it's more like liquid. Like water, it can bend. One's perception of time and awareness is enough to make one a time traveler. Some would say, I was high. Guess what I was high, not on any form of medication but because of my brain. I just cut one of its drugs, for a while it had been trying to get high on something. For now, it's sleep. Now it's my turn to break that. Don't worry its an old post. View this post on Inst...

It was quite a weird moment. Thought cutting of social would bring me peace; that I'll be away from the cringe in this word. The last time I did the reality check, I was wrong. It flooded me with all those emotions and bad ideas I had been suppressing as an act of self-preservation. Last night that is day 1, I had a dream which almost confused me. After a little digging, it all turned out to be a memory loop. Think of your brain as a computer that tags memories as the day goes by. At night when you are most in REM Sleep, it plays back all those moments in a mixed-up way. Think of it like compressing an essay shorter and shorter again so much that it becomes just basic words, like Pizza, Friends, Talk, Park, Metro. Now our subconscious links all these to related things, which to us seem unrelated or even an encoded message. Something it could be. For me the dream had an emotional connection, it also showcased me in the worst possible scenarios, then the way it closed and connected t...